Please, please, please don’t wish sickness upon yourself.
Okay, so it maybe is true that things might suck now, that you have parents who take their anger out on you, that you’re going through 'relationship' problems, and that the world feels like it’s crashing down on you. But you’re worth so much more, that you’re a strong girl, that you can overcome this. There is so much more to live for, so much more to experience. Don’t you want to be able to travel the world, see famous landmarks, eat genuine Italian pizza, publish a book. You haven’t lived yet and that being a twenty-something, well, it comes with a lot of burdens … more than you should actually have at this age and what you deserve. But it’s a learning experience, as hard and unfair as it is.
Remember that you still have your friends. And I’m probably in no place to say anything (but I couldn’t just sit back and watch you like this either) and that this isn’t as eloquent as I wish it was, but I hope you know that there are people that care about you.
A strong person isn’t the one who doesn’t cry. A strong person is the one who sheds tears for a moment, picks up her sword and fights again.
So go, go cry your heart out and all your sufferings. That’s the only way you’ll make room for laughter and smiles. As they say, your smile is the best revenge. Don’t give anyone the satisfaction that they’ve broken you.
Love you, Momonski. <3